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| I had a very good day! I just wanted to share that- and the things that happened! -I had a cute old woman tell me I was beautiful! To be called beautiful by a wise, kind woman- wow! -I had a woman give me her business card and tell me to call her when I graduate so that I can be her PA!!! I must be doing something right! -I'm learning Spanish and spoke the whole morning to alot of Spanish speaking patients. Then, I went into an English speaking room and started to speak in Spanish!!! Ooops. :) At least that means I might be starting to think in Spanish...a little? Anywho- I love good days! | | |
| Today was a really sad day for me! I saw two patients today- both of which were quadraplegics from events that they had no control over such as car accidents, strokes, heart attacks, and infections....and some weird combination of the above. But seeing two really nice and successful people- brothers, fathers, sons...people who loved, laughed, and lived life well... stuck in hospital beds sick because of events out of their control really made me realize how fleeting life is. You can be going along doing your own thing and BAM, life changes in what seems one of the worst ways possible. No ability to move anything but your head and facial muscles, no breathing on your own, no feeling people hold your hand, no baths (imagine having sponge baths the rest of your life!- yuck), no food- only tube feeding, no...gasp...coffee...a complete and utter change. It just really made me want to live- really live- in every moment that I have and look at how much good I do have in my life. I complain (sometimes alot) about how much I have to do with PA school and everything else, and how hard marriage can be (even with the most amazing husband in the world :)), how living frugally is difficult...blah blah blah, complain complain complain. I have it great and I wanna start realizing that and living each moment even though it's "difficult". (It's "difficult" because the spoiled brat it me is more and more slowly withering away- yay). So yeah- my thought today is to just enjoy life! It's fleeting and you never know when you or one of the people you love dearly will have a sudden change. And change can be hard- whether good or bad! Wow. But.. no matter how fleeting, God is in control over it all! And...oh yeah. I was really amazed at the attitude of one of the patients. I walked in and they smiled and tried to talk and really gave life their all- even after all they've been through. Wow- that takes alot of courage and shows alot about their character! | | |
| So, I dont' know if anyone reads this anymore, but here's an update on Martha's life. I've been crazy busy with school (surpise). I just finished in the past 6 months rotations in spanish, psychiatry, OBGYN, peds ER, the newborn nursery, and in a pediatric outpatient clinic. On top of that I've been working on my master's thesis which has had...how shall I put it...a few bumps along the way. But I guess that's the nature of research. On top of that, I've finally been working through some issues that should have been worked out a long time ago and working to improve my marriage (it's very good! :)). And, I'm proud to say I'm slowly but surely learning how to put certain priorities above school. And, what's neat is that I guess it helps me destress which helps me to make my work/study time more effective which helps me maintain the same grades or sometimes even improve them! Yay! But, I'm about to start Surgery and ER- to of the most hellacious rotations in PA school. They're really fun, but the hours are very awful at all times of the day and night. So if I fall of the face of the social world for a while, that's why. So that's my life in a nutshell. Oh, and I had a wonderful christmas break. It was nice to see everyone and to travel! Yay! Everyone we saw- we had a great time and can't wait to do it again! Oh, and congrats to sommer and corey for a beautiful baby Liam!!! | | |
| Happy Anniversary Matt and Kathy! I'm very proud of you for making it through these past 3 years! And for those of you going through a hard time, one of my professors at school emailed this quote to all of her students. I thought it was very good. "Do not worry about today, for tomorrow always comes and yesterday never returns!" | | |
| It's amazing how time flies! Today I was at "work" (working on one of my clinical rotations) and realized it has been a year and a half (ish) since I graduated college, got married, had a loved one get better, and started PA School. It has been 9 months since my "nephew" has been born- a friend's son (not my brother's son :)). And the list could go on...but I'll spare you. I'm just amazed at how fast it flies. And it's good and bad. On the days when school was exhausting and when life felt just a little too hard...I was glad that time was/is flying. But today I realized how much I've missed out during this time. With school and marriage and everything life has brought that has kept me from those I care about the most in other towns...and unfortunately in this town...I've missed out on birthdays, happy moments, sad moments, and just plain moments where I was needed but couldn't be there. It's made me feel a ton of different emotions. So yeah...there are my thoughts on time for the moment (ha.). | | |
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